The Trials We Put Ourselves Through

With all the tension in the air following Father's return, it painfully obvious that everyone is blaming themselves, that they could have stopped this from happening. I know I've been blaming myself. Father feels he should have taken Lizzy;s warning more seriously, and Lizzy seems to feel she should have pursued it farther. Everyone is dwelling, I can only hope we find them soon.

Keeping Hope

Lizzy will be home soon. I can only hope it will be for the best. It was obvious in her reply that Lydia's desertion has pained her. But she will be home soon, where we can bear it together. Father has sent no new news as of yet. Kitty blames her self, for keeping Lydia and Wickham's relationship a secret from us, but there is no point in that now. the only things that matters is that they are found safe and sound. Their disappearance from intended destination is almost as nerve wracking as their first disappearance. Father, please hurry. 

Expect the Unexpected

Lizzy, how do I say this? How do I tell you that you were right about Lydia,  without causing you pain? I fear it is impossible, but I must try. Lydia has run off with Wickam, and is no where to be found. Father is in town looking for her, and mother has become ill from the stress. Just when you have finally gotten back on track with Mr. Darcy, I have to go ruin it for you. Oh, how I am dreading this call, however it must be done.

Visiting Hours

With Lydia gone, and Mr. Darcy to worry about, Lizzy has been stressed to much as of late. I think visiting with Mrs. Gardiner and going to see Pemberly will do her good. Father was sad to see her go, as she was not home long.

The Waiting Game

what a way to leave off!. the last thing I heard form Lizzy was about Mr. Darcy's surprise proposal. but with the two of them so near each other, it is almost impossible to avoid each other. I am in anticipation of her next call. Sometimes the wait is worth it and sometimes not. I have to say though, I am getting tired of waiting. for all the time I've spent in London, I have yet to see hide or tail of Mr. Bingley. It's time to head home in a few weeks, I think.

Rejection

Lizzy, what a situation to have been in! You, who have no liking or inclination of liking Mr. Darcy! His intentions where good, I admit, and he appeared to truly care for you. He may have caused me unintentional pain, but it was for his friend; Mr. Darcy was doing what he thought was right. But his mannerisms toward you in his proposal where not the best. And his treatment of Mr. Wickham still is unexplained.  Maybe something more is going on there.

The Old Bat

Catherine seems even worse than we thought. Snark and snobby, she truly insulted Lizzy today. Making her play on the housekeepers piano when there was a perfectly good  grand in the next room. Lately, with all the drama going on, it has become hard to stay upbeat about things.

Lizzy Gets a Surpirse

Dear Lizzy,
Mr.Darcy's arrival must have been truly nerve wracking. Though, I hear that his cousin Fitzwilliam was nice and polite. Hopefully their visit will not be as painful as you predicted, and nothing too bad will occur. Mr. Collins will try his best to bore them to death, so maybe they won't visit too much.